Dear Broken Me,
See you decided to get me early in life, before I had a chance to even know what day of the week it was.
See you decided to get me before I could fully understand the power God gave me and before I could fully comprehend the violation that was happening to me, by the hands of a man that should have protected me from predators , molesters and monsters. He should have been the man I ran to,but instead he became the man I ran from.
Dear broken me what your dad did to you wasn't your fault.
Dear Broken Me, I know you wondered who do I tell something like that to, after all he is your dad. At this point you just wish you didn't have to ever see him or talk to him again.
Dear Broken Me, see your shy quiet self you never say anything, you never speak up. Oooooh!!! I get it, I guess you figured your voice didn't matter, no one really listens anyway. You silenced the voice that never had a chance to speak.
Dear Broken Me, why are these girls picking on you, why don't they want to be your friend today? One day they are your friend , the next day they say they aren't... Is this how friendship should be? I know you didn't do anything to them to make them be so mean... Dear broken me I heard you praying to God to remove you from this school.
See even as you were being broken,you knew God was there you never blamed him.
God answered your prayer moved you to Atlanta!!!!
Dear broken me, I know you never wanted to be a single mother Because you saw how hard your mom struggled with you and your brother, that was the main reason you started working at the age of 14. See you are strong maybe Because you never wanted to depend on a man. But some how you forgot about your dreams or maybe you just didn't fully know how to get there. But now you have a baby , unwed by a man who is too naive to understand your worth (shoot!!! maybe he was broken too). See he also brought you pain and hurt , confusion. Now a 2nd man has added to your brokenness. Now all you know to do is stay strong for you and your baby boy Because now you have to raise him to be better than the men you've experienced
Dear Broken Me you seem to have done well throughout the years taken care of you, your son,working, going to school starting an accessory line... Vowing not to have another child until marriage. Growing in your relationship with God but then just when you thought it was your time to be happy in marriage you meet the sweetest , most charming Guy ... Not knowing he was a sheep in wolves clothing. See broken me you didn't give it enough time and now life is being torn upside down. Lies, deceit, manipulation, this pain is worst than anything you have ever experience. See he prayed with you, went to church with all along he was just preying on you. It hurts soooo bad. Now your wondering , why is this happening,now you'er pregnant and lost in your pain because love once again found the broken you and used it to break pieces of you that were built up over the past years.
But today broken me, you are victorious, your voice is loud, your testimony will help others overcome and now you know that it was all for the purpose God has on your life. Now you know that you have two boys to raise to be great men of God ,that will love their wives and their children. Now you cry tears of joy because broken you didn't win. Now you know the truth behind love, joy, peace, prayer and so much more.
So broken me thank you for all the pieces you left me, it's giving me just enough to build with. Thank you,broken me for not braking me but Building me.
I'm grateful for you and I love you.
Broken me ,you are brave
Broken me, you are strong
Broken me, you have helped me be better
Broken me you don't need to meet me because you knew me all the while.
I love you Girl!!! With your beautiful strong self
Kionica